remember my single double room where you stayed in with me? remember all those good memories we had there? memories that are so hard to erase.. memories so hard to forgive.. 

Where Have the times gone baby
It’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two

Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
The people we used to be
It’s even harder to picture
That you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And then that time that you wasted
All of our bridges burnt down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this 
All those fairytales are full of it
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick.

You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But just gave it away
You can’t expect me to be fine
I don’t expect you to care
I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burnt down

Now I’m at a payphone…

I just wanted another chance……

I don’t know why.. I’m afraid of looking at your photos.. I’m afraid to see you holding hands with another person.. Everytime I see you post something, I quickly scroll you away.. I’m scared because I dreamt you were with someone but that guy was a total jerk.. I pray for you so that God will bless you with someone who is better than me and will treat you nicely..

We parked the car by the side of the bulldog restaurant.. I took your hand and into renaissance hotel we went.. You asked me why you were here.. I said to celebrate your birthday and our 2months anniversary.. We went up to one level below the swimming pool, we took the stairs up and I showed you the beautiful night light of our hometown.. We kissed and we hugged, I always enjoyed hugging you from behind to make you feel safe.. I showed you my left arm, fake tattoo-ed your name.. You gave me a super big kiss.. I pulled out a charmed bracelet for you and you loved it a lot.. Then the security came and luckily I knew him.. We left shortly after that.. 12/13-12-10

Am I happy with my situation now?

I dreamt about you yesterday :( you were with another guy already.. I woke up because I couldn’t handle the dream.. It was 849am

I’m just another contact in your phonebook now

Remember that japanese place we like in vivo? Guess I’m never going in there again :/

Just tore the last few pictures of us.. Everytime I hear the stripping sound, my heart just crumbles.. It was 2 wonderful years and I had to screw it up.. I always think that you’re my soul mate and I still think it that way.. I just have to drop it don’t I?

I miss eating with you until full and I give you a nice tummy rub when we’re done.. I miss smelling your smell when I hug you from the back.. I miss carrying you while you keep shouting putmedownputmedown..